Learn To Breath Again..Like A Baby

Have you ever seen a baby breath ? How does the baby breath ? Do the little one breath grasply or slowly without any effort ? Sometimes when we busy with our daily life, we forgot how to breath properly. Although the rthym of breathing is out of our control, since it is under our brain pituitary command, but we still can put in some effort to make sure we breath properly. Some people breath are too shallow, some are just too short and some breath grasply like running out of air.

After I practise meditation for some time, I notice that my breath become very natural if I am mindful enough. I am not quite sure whether it's our breath that helps my meditation or the other way round. But one thing I learnt is that previously my breath is too shallow, not deep enough to expel the unwanted air out of my lungs. The consequences is I feel tire easily, my blood circulation blocked and my whole body feel pain after sitting in front of my laptop for a long day after work.

When our breathing is not smooth, it affect our 'Chi' circulation in the body. Try to sit down quietly and close your eyes, exhale and inhale slowly. After a while, you will notice that your breath slowing down and reach a rhtym almost similar to the sea tide movement. In and out, In and out without any effort or force it. It helps to improve our health tremendously. Trust me.

Whenever i miss out my meditation practise, again my body will back to those state again, feeling pain and uneasy. So i cannot 'breath' without the meditation at all.

Try it out yourself, you have to experience it then only you know the goodness of it.


Happy breathing !

The Pandora Box...

I heard a story before about the pandora box, where when God creates human, Adam & Eva, He gave a box to them, warn him not to open the box until a day come. I cannot really remember what was that special day. But it a testament to Adam & Eva on their curiosity. One day, both of them open the pandora box and guess what happened ? All the evils stuff coming out of the box & started to spread in the world. These include diseases, jealousy, laziness, hatress and other evils stuff.

The swine flu this time coming without any warning. It was so sudden and no one really know how to control it. I am abit worried because I am travelling to HK this coming friday, for a family trip. A fear appear in me. But since everything has been arranged and it's so close to the travel dat and impossible for us to cancel the trip, so we still stick to the plan.

I guess there must be a reason for it to happen. Where does this new breed of virus coming from ? And why it's change genetically until we are not known about its nature ? Normally swine virus will not caused any infection to human. But why it happened so ? Could it be the human act that cause it ? Maybe the pigs are taking too many man made chemical injection, in order to increase the meaty production. There are so many questions in my head. But no one can provide any answer to it.

I think nothing i can do except take precaution and pray for my family. I know we will be fine and good health will always be with us.

May this pandemic stop and the the world back to its natural rthym again.

Namaste !

3 Kisses And The Wind

Yesterday was my 33 years old birthday and my son all together gave me 3 kisses in 1 day ! He never do that in normal days. Even sometimes when i asked him to kiss me he always refused. But in my birthday he is willing to do so 3 times. I felt so sweet inside when he gave me these kisses on the cheek. Thanks my boy ! Mummy love you always . Hopefully you still will give me these kisses when you grow up.

It's a very windy days and kite flying season is here again. We decided to go for kite flying too for the first time last saturday. I have redeemed a kite for my son via some points collection. So when we go there, we saw many kites flying in the sky. We are so excited, especially myself because I didn't fly any kite since I was young. Never before. So we walked to the ample grass field and dad started to try fly the kite. When you see people flying the kite, it looks like very easy to get it on the sky but too bad for us. After dad try for some time, we gave up. Looks like our kite too small & too heavy to fly up. Well, all right. I admitted that when he is flying the kite that time, I was nagging him a lot. Keep pushing him to fly it. Maybe it was my fault giving him too much pressure.

So instead continueing with the kite, my eldest wanted to play in the play ground, and the youngest one sitting at the bench watching people playing basketball game.


I was trying to find a tranquil moment with myself. Here I managed to find a spot where i can face the sunset directly. The sun was setting down slowly, i tried to look for the tranquil moment within myself and projected it out to the surrounding. What I felt that time is magnificent calm and ease. The wind blow directly to my face and it was just me, only me alone standing there facing the sun. While everyone is moving, flying kites, jogging, playing basketball with lots of noises but only me feeling calm and quiet inside. Sometimes we are just too busy until we forgot about good things around us. Same as what happen in our mind. Look at the sky and the sun and the cloud, don't you see the magnificent beauty out there created by Him ?

I closed my eyes for a moment and let the wind blowing on my face, I felt like all the worries & uneasiness on me all blow away by the wind. All gone with the wind. I felt refreshed all over again.
I guess I have done a short moment of meditation that brings this. What I felft only the sweetness of the 3 kisses of my son and the beautt of this world.

Your innerself will be reflected on your surrounding, if you dare enough to look at yourself, you will see more and more of it and grab the essense of it.

Trust me, the enemy is within yourself, not others. Now I finally realized this.

Namaste !

It Never Be A Co-Incidence

I truely believe nothing happened just because of co-incidence or because it just happened like that. It must be something that trigger it, or a source caused it. The true energy forces surrounding us that drive us around things that happen, I believe.

Why people say wish can come true ? why people can achieve whatever they want in life ? But some unfortunately living through his whole life without achieving anything ? There must be some secret there that yet to be revealed.

Can it be the divine energy force - the key to everything ? to achieve whatever you want in life ? Can it be if you know how to activate this 'good' energy and turn to a magic wand that will grant your wish as you want ? If it is true, then I can see some fear creeping in me.

I do Believe divine energy really exist around us.

Butterfly Effect

Yesterday when i read through an article about an earth exhibition. People from all over the world are designing some environmental friendly bags with meaningful pictures/words on it. The purpose is to create more awareness on recycling and reuse.

There's one bag design that caught my eyes. The bag has a quote sounds 'I believe in butterfly effect'. There's a short explanation besides the bag design picture. Why butterfly effect ? Just imagine there's a beautiful garden with lots of beautiful flowers in it. Since the garden have lots of flowers, no surprise there will be butterflies in it. When a butterfly is flipping its wings, the rest of the butterflies in the garden will do the same too. Surprise isn't it ? It can be at first only 2 buterflies following the same flipping actoin, then 4 become 8, 8 become 16, 16 become 32, 32 become 64. That's how the doubling effect being transmitted to the rest of the butterflies. That's how they fly together.

No wonder these few days, my eldest son keep asking me some mathematical questions like what is the answer for 2 + 2, 4 + 4, 8 + 8, 16 + 16, 32 + 32, 64 + 64. I guess he is giving me some hints on something. The butterfly effect works in this formula well. Though the mathematic sounds simple and easy but the effect is strong & meaningful.

If you want to do something or change something, change it from yourself. Then let the change carry on to others, by starting with smaller step from people surrounding you. Starts from 1 is good enough, then 2 then 4 then 8. After some times, change will take place by itself even to the whole family, society, country and even to the whole world. But the change here means good one, not too radical one.

Don't look down on this simple equation. It works well in this nature world and will work for us too since we are one of the creation from nature too !

Namaste !

The Law Of Attraction - I Did It Again !

It feel strange but I know something is there. I know definitely you will say I am crazy or full of nonsense. But I really did it again based on law of attraction theory.

Human energy is special and more powerful than what we can think of. Our surrounding is full of vibration of energy. Our cells, our whole body is full of vibration. The vibration can be sent via our surrounding to other places or even reach up to the universe above us. It has been hundred & thousand years that Indian, Chinese people believe that the movement of son, moon, other planets like jupiter, saturn, venus have great influence on our life or our energy movement to be more accurately. This give us a concrete view that the outer space allow the energy to travel through, even thought there's no air medium in it.

If you know how to control or access this energy vibration field, I believe you will be holding the key to the secret of life. By tapping into this energy field, you will know how it works based on law of attraction theory. Though I never really read through this book, only the excerpt of it. But I think I undertand what message the book is trying to convey - but the book never teach us how.

To tap into this energy field means to tap into the divine energy field as what I can say based on my own experience. There's one universal way which will enable you to tap into this divine energy - meditation & yoga.

Let me explain how I conclude this first before you make any judgement on my statement.

In nature I believe that all human are the same. All of us having the same ability, here I means instinct ability. But human mind always in an active state and it's the mind nature to stay that way. We think of other things when we sitting in front of computer screen in the office, what to eat tonight, what movie to watch tonight. It happens to most of us. The mind activitives have some how block our instinct/inborn ability to see or hear things that we not usual to see. Energy vibration is one of it. Some people able to see a person aura (energy fields represented by different colors area, that surrounding our body) because he is maintaining this natural ability to see it. He has tapped into the energy field.

Our mind is just too busy with too many thoughts, it does us no good at all. If you can calm your mind, reduce the thoughts that coming in. You will feel the difference. Meditation is one of the way to maintain the calmness of one's mind.

As I mentioned in my posting here and here, we never know that the world might consist of nothing but only vibration of this energy which waiting for us to tap into its power.

Namaste !

The Real Truman Show

This morning when I was standing at the train station, waiting for the train, I looked up to the sky and noticed that the moon is there, watching us. The contrast between the light blue sky and the clouds color looks so strong that I felt like it was not real at all, but more like a water color painting. Suddenly I think of this scenery almost similar to one of the scene appear in 'The Truman Show' movie.

The movie was directed and played by Jim Carrey. The story is about an insurance salesman/adjuster discovers his entire life is actually a TV show. Thousand and millions of people watching him on TV. There is one scene where the producer of the TV Show, watching Truman from the moon, which actually a control room used by the producer to control lights effects, weather and everything in the show.

Could this actually happen in our life as well ? Where God is the producer and He is watching us from His control room and observe our daily life ? We are just God puppets to be placed on stage and our life story is actually all in the hand of God. Sometimes He will give us some obstacles, difficulties, challenge, misery in life but sometimes He is kind enough to let us enjoy the happiness. If you believe in God, you might feel the same way as what i feel.

The point here is the world will not just be there for no purpose. There must be a creator with highest power that make this world exists. I do believe that in each one of us, there's a soul, given my God and bestowed into our physical body. Then He starts the stage playing by watching us, to see whether we are able to find back the origin of our soul, cultivate it and return back to Him when it's time. Then the physical body will be discarded.

But how does the God judge that a soul can be returned to him ? Well, there must be some guiding rules there to give out the merits. Regardless of what religion you are, I believe that the final purpose of all the religion always go back to cultivate kindness, happiness and good in one's doing.

We will always in Samsara if we do not have the right merits to go back to Him, where as human being, we have to go through life, aging, sickness and death again and again which will bring suffering to us.

By realizing this, one's will always live his life by following the right path. The guidelines can come from any religions text, Qur'an, Yoga Sutra, Kong Zi's Tao or others. But there's only 1 final path/destination which each one of us will follow - back to our inner soul, back to God and end all the suffering in samsara.

This is just my own realization, so please don't feel offend by any words or sentences I wrote here.

Namaste !

When All Human Made Things Gone...

What will happen if things that build by human being, such as skycrapper, bridge, houses, roads, streets lamps, machinery, electronics devices, vechicles.. ? will the world become dark without the lights that we used to ? Sunlight and moon light will be the world only source of light.

Imagine a world without the noices from the planes, train or honking cars. No noises from ringing phones, no air conditioner roaming sounds, no keyboard typing or mouse clicks sound, how will it feel ?

Everyone will just focus on interaction with other human being, and sharing information freely and cheerfully. Everyone can find a quiet & peaceful moment for themself, regardless of where they are. Becauase the world are full of things that created by highest power, rather than human being. Look at those trees, rivers, mountain, clear blue sky with floating clouds, flowers, rains, fishes, butterfly, each of this is full of its own beauty and liveliness. You will full of inspiration by just taking a look at it.
You will enjoy each everyday fully even though you don't have your car, phone or your laptop to bother you.

Isn't that a heaven that we all waiting for ? I remember there was a movie before, played by Robin William, 'What Dream May Come True'. I really impressed by the way the heaven scene showed in the movie. There's a scene on hell as well. Both are very very contrast with each other. It about after life for man that trying to save his wife from hell due to her commit suicide act.

There was a scene where Robin William trying to walk through a meadow, which actually exist in her wife painting, all those things looks to vivid and alive. Can it be the same too for everything that surrounding us such as trees, grasses, flowers..I like to expand my imagination til no limit.

These few days feeling an urge to pick up paiting again. The sky getting more and more beautiful each every day. The sky showing me its greatest showcase that makes me want to paint it and frame it so that i can view it even it's not there.


Namaste !

I Saw My Own Fear ...

Without expecting it, i encoutered with my own fear yesterday. It happended when I do a 20 minutes meditation after the class, based on my teacher's instruction. As usual I sat down in lotus pose, with straight back, relax tummy, I closed my eyes. After the teacher repeated the 7 sounds, slowly I settled down to the meditation. Not many thoughts came out during that time, only minor one, the sounds getting softer but I still focus on whatever sounds that appeared. After about 17 minutes, suddenly a feelings of fear came out from nowhere. Even with my eyes closed, I felt like something is watching me in front and tried to force me to open my eyes. I really felt scared that time, it was like I am threatened by some kind of monster sitting right in front of me, waiting to eat me. My heart pound heavily and I felt desperated & wanted to open my eyes.

But then i remember my teacher said focus on the sounds on whatever thoughts come, including the fear feeling. After a while, my teacher rang the bell to indicate the end of the session. The fear feeling slowly subsided and I opened my eyes slowly. That's the experience I have with my own fear in my mind.

I learned that whatever thoughts that appeared in our mind during meditation, will be cleansed from our body when you finished the session. I believe I have cleansed away the fear in my heart and mind. I know
it works for me. Glad that I was not eaten by the devil monster that appeared.

Namaste !

(1 Day after completed meditation class. I am still maintaining 20 minutes morning & night meditation session.)

Our 3 Bodies

I was 15 minutes late for the meditation class yesterday. But luckily the class haven't start yet.
As usual we filled out the questionaire sharing out our daily meditation experience. We learned about 3 bodies and the meaning of 7 sounds teached to us.

During the class, we learned that human have 3 bodies rather than 1.
These 3 bodies are: physical body, astral body and causal body. The physical body is the one that we can see, touch and feel. Whereas the astral body is our memory kept in our mind. The causal body is the outer layer that surrounding our physical body and astral body. The astral body and causal body are energy fields that surround our physical body. If we have too many memory and trapped inside the astral body that caused us cannot reach to our causal body. Our memory of childhood, bad incidents, words that we have heard, our routine habits are all kept inside our astral body. If our astral body is too thick, we will be trapped in our past memory.

I had been trapped in the past before, that really bring lots of suffering to me. But now finally I know I have free from it. It's like you are inside a coccoon and waiting for the right time to break out and become a new person. It's a reborn kind of experience for me, a metamorphosis process. I am glad that I have made it !

The causal body is our spiritual body that bring us in touch with the creator of this world. This is where our soul located. The soul is with us since we are born and each individual soul is unique and special. As we grow up, things that happened in our life, memory started to accumulate in this body and become our astral body, that block us from reaching our soul. Though for some people it might sounds religious .

It's going to be a long way for me to understand more on meditation. But now I will just focus on what I can do daily, to meditate twice daily without any expectation. Expectation will bring down yourself if you cannot perform up to it. I experienced that myself in yoga. Something which is too routine will do no good as well. It's just not practical keep defeated in this way. It's human nature not to be feel defeated but triumph.

Hope I have been blessed with all the good and all the good will come to my way.

Namaste !

Time Will Come

When one's heart is looking for something to happen or have desire need to be fulfilled, it's human nature to feel frustrated and keep asking when it will happen or when the desire can be fulfilled.

The waiting part become longer and longer and one's is getting lesser and lesser patient with it. This happen if you do not understand the law of nature. Things will happen when it is intended to happen. Forcing will not make things happen immediately even with great effort. The crucial key here is the time is not right. When the time is not right, but you are forcing to happen, a conflict will be there which has the opposite effect of achieving something.

I realized this after practising yoga for some time. Our body know what is the best for us to survive since the beginning of first life on earth. Sometimes when people ask me how to be able to perform certain pose. I will advice them that not to force but listen to you body. It is your body know you best but not you know your body best. Sounds strange isn't it ? All the while we thought we know our body the best. We exercise, eat high energy food, taking clean of it and detox. But we feel puzzled when the body get sick after all these efforts. Then we started to wonder what really happen to our body ?

In yoga, learning to let go, rather than holding and thinking about the pain will help you sinking deeper into the poses. Let go of the pain you feel in your legs or hands, by focusing on your breath. After a while, you feel more relax and the pain gone. Trust your body. And do not force it. I have a friend that told me that once she injured herself during hanumanasana pose. It should not be that way. Yoga will not cause any injury to the body if you know the right way.

I think most of us have neglected what our body trying to tell us. We forcing the body too much until we ignored those signal sent out to us to warn us on something.

My point here is that don't forcing anything but wait patiently for it. Time will come when it hits the right tune.

Each one of us has some energy fields around our body. The energy field is formed through the vibration of atoms, the most gradular entity in this universe I believe. The energy will transmitted to the universe via various medium around our body. The air, the vapour, the water, the wind, the tree. If you have read a book titled 'The Secret', you will remember in the book, it mentioned about the law of attraction : think of things that you want, then the universe will reply with it. How does this happen ? It is the energy field/vibration that play the tricks.

It happened to me not once but twice based. Few months back after I was enlightened, I consistently waiting for my mentor/guru to appear. And it did happened. It is not a co-incidence or by chance but I am the one that sent out the energy/vibration out that attracts it to happen.

The law of attractin is true but as my meditation teacher said, something still missing from it - they never tell us how to perform it ,the way how to achieve it. Meditation could be the only answer to it.

Namaste !

Inspiration Or Desperation

It was an ordinary day and I was fascinated by the sunset view from the yoga center window. I believed that's one of the reason why the center is located here, right on top of a hill with a window looking out to the vast sky. I like this place much. That day I sat down with my meditation teacher and shared out an experience with her, someting that totally change my life and opened a new chapter for me.

After the sharing, she told me that basically there are 2 ways that prompt human to breakthrough of current state and look beyond , inspiration or desperation. Both brings a totally contrast meaning.

Inspiration is a positive energy that push someone to look beyond for something new or breakthrough.

Whereas desperation is a negative energy that drive someone to look for a breakthrough too, but in a much rather painful way compare to previous one. It's the hopelessness that drive me to look for a way to change my life, because it caused too much suffering to myself. I guess it's human instinct to survive, when life hits a bottleneck.

Yesterday night during the class, my yoga teacher introduced a new word to us 'Samsara', taken from buddhism context. It means chasing the tails without stopping. It is just like a cat is trying to chase its own tail, running in a circle but he will never get it. Same as my previous experience, I am going round and round in a circle with my own thoughts. Without my awareness, I am chasing my own tails in a circle.
Then when something bad happened, suddenly I was awakened from this chasing game.

Meditation can help us to break out of this chasing game. It helps us to open up again those neuron connection which have never been used or being neglected due to our routine habits or way of thinking.

It helps to smooth out our 'Chi' in the body as well. Our body 'Chi' flow just like a flowing river. If the river is fulll of unwanted stuff like rubbish, oil stains, then the flow will not be smooth &wil get congested. Same goes to our 'Chi' flow in the body. All the pains that we suffered are caused by serious congestion in our 'Chi' flow. It's a symptom of blockage flow. So one's should not ignore the pain, but rather pay attention to it and find a way to clear this congestion.

Meditation will helps in this. I am still in the exploring stage on meditation. I hope one day I can be good enough in meditation and pass all the benefits & skill that i have learned to others as well. The world is filled with too much negative energy and the world need more positive energy to balance it back.

Namaste !

My 2 Posting Are Missing !

Out of sudden my 2 previous posting on Eckhart Tolle book - The Power Of Now are missing. I remember I posted it out near year end when I borrowed the book from my brother in law. Well, I felt abit puzzled and sad at first. But then when I think back, I didn't lost anything at all, these 2 are just articles written in words. What I learned from the book, it will stay with me forever as part of my experience.

You see, it goes the same way on what we are having now. Your house, your car, your phone, even your laptop will vanish one day. So what can be with us only the experience and wisdom.

One of my friend forward me an article few days back and I only manage to read it this morning. It's an article written by Feng Shui master, Joey Yap. It's titled 'Success In The Present Economy'. Basically he is trying to promote his feng shui course in this article but he brings out 1 important point : Invest In Yourself. It immediately caught my attention. I do agree with him that we are our own best asset. Things that we can see or hold are just too fragile and it is out of our control to make it stay. But what stay strong and not fragile is our ownself. We need to work hard on cultivating ourself because that the only asset you have when everything touchable in this world perished and not affected by the environment.

It's good to invest something in yourself. Attending a fitness class, yoga or learning new skills such as language or baking, make you being with yourself.

The key word here is being. In this world, most people not being with themself in life. This is because we have too many thoughts running in our mind. It's a natural state for our mind to be full of thoughts coming in and going out. Investment in mind such as a meditation course definitely worth the penny. If you cannot even understand your own mind, how can you use it to master feng shui skills ?

I hope you get my point here. Namaste !

Starting Up With A New Journey...

I signup for a sounds meditation course last week right after attending the introductory session, given by the center founder, Beth. It was a very useful intro session to me. As I started to understand why meditation is such an important way to fulfil our life purpose. Meditation helps us in the areas as below as highlighted by Beth :

- helps us to understand more about ourself
- improve our health conditions
- increase our awareness
- increase our stress barrier

I am particularly attracted by the 1st & last point. Beth commented that in order to cope with the environment happenings, one's must understand him/herself first. With that in mind, only you can face the world bravely. Thus I do believe meditation will helps me to understand more about myself. It is similar to a case where you must understand your ship features, specification and behaviour of it then only you know how to cruise with it. Same as human's mind. I guess my weakest part previously will be my emotional one. One of the example given by Beth is our mind just like a big ocean, with strong waves and lighter waves going through it. When strong waves move in the ocean, nothing can be seen clearly underneath. But when the waves stopped, the surface become clear and everything underneath can be seen clearly. That's where the meditation come to calm the strong waves.

The strong waves is resemble our mind's thoughts, which constantly move in and out in our mind. I have had an experience before, which caused almost a destruction to me due to one single thought that keep roaming in my mind. The worst that I have ever had & I promised to myself that I will never done that gain to myself. That's the reason why I was attracted to meditation and start looking for it.

A strong wave is destructive enough to destroy the whole 'SHIP' ! Ship here can means a person, a country or even the whole world.

Meditation helps to increase our stress barrier as well. A stronger castle frontier means higher resistance to enemy's attack. Same as our resistance to stress, if you spend time to build stress resist frontier, then our ability to cope with stress will increase. Meditation helps to increase our resistance to stress.

I have tried few meditation techniques before and sounds meditation is a new for me.

I believe meditation will help me in finding out my purpose of life with the right guidance from the guru. I know I should keep the cup quarterly full first as there are more waiting for me to explore and discover.

All You Need Is Just 1 Step Further...

It's not easy to take the 1st step towards a new world. In fact, it's just feel like one hundred thousand kilograms of rocks putting on your feet, not even moving an inch. But I know I need to find a way to survive and a way to step to another world.

Time doesn't wait for human. And I do not want to regret my life when I look back. Please give me strength to clear off those doubts and uncertainty. Bring me more courage and strenght, to remove those rocks from my feet. As light as feather i will hops and dance and bounce, til I reach and touch the softy cloud above me. I know obstacles definitely will be there for me. I know devil/evil is peeking through the holes, finding oppoturnity. But I will overcome all these with determination and faith.

Give me wings so that I can fly as high as I can and see spaces beyond the imagination of human. Knowing that my angel always waiting for me there, I will smile back to her and send her my wishes and blessings. Angel, please guide me to my home, where I can find peace and tranquility.