Finding Balance Between Dream And Responsibilities

Things happened naturally and the law of nature never changed. It's always a testament to a human when his is trying to work for something which is out of his/her ordinary path. Well, that's how the God test your truthfulness of your heart and how you are able to stand the external challlenge that distracting you from your soul path. It's just like while you are meditating, those evil thoughts started to lure you into its trap and eating you up. You need to be strong, true to your own soul and trust your soul in order to survive the evil attack.

Again I told myself not to too stick to the emotional feeling on whatever external things bestow on you. Enjoy the pure joy it bring, but not to attach to it. Letting go of it is the crucial way to proceed on to your life path. I asked myself "Do I really need those external stuf to make me happy ?".

The poem I wrote last few weeks when I read it back, it's the true words coming out from my soul and it pull me back from the reality of the world and I don't feel lost at all. Thanks for the inspiration on the poem.

Again responsibilities is another area that I need to learn how to balance on it. I told myself to focus on whatever I can do now and let the natural force make things happened as I am totally out of control of what can be happened or what is goingn to happen.

I always hummed this song whenever I am feeling down :

Somewhere over the rainbow, I see the sky full of angels....
Somewhere over the rainbow, I can see all things are true...
Somewhere over the rainbow, I can see my soul is flying in the sky.....
......

I love this song. It raised my spiritual up and give me hope I guess.

Namaste !


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Dance Freely From The Soul..

Yesterday night me and my son having a great time together just before sleep. I just thought of holding him under his armpit and swing him around. But he like it so much that he requested me to do it again and again. It was fun and I feel totally free. It was like I am full of those energy, swinging him from left to right, even with the balllet steps. The feeling is incredibly great. He bring out my inspiration to dance again. He is my inspiration since he was born. I feel very very much close to him since then until now and forever. We grow together is what I can say.

I never know that my soul eager to dance so much, dance freely without any restriction or rules to follow. I know I am bold enough to do that. It is the same things for life. Put in passion into it and see how's your life response back to you. Passion, enthusiasm is the main ingredient for the dancing life.

It's your life !

Namaste !

3 Kisses And The Wind

Yesterday was my 33 years old birthday and my son all together gave me 3 kisses in 1 day ! He never do that in normal days. Even sometimes when i asked him to kiss me he always refused. But in my birthday he is willing to do so 3 times. I felt so sweet inside when he gave me these kisses on the cheek. Thanks my boy ! Mummy love you always . Hopefully you still will give me these kisses when you grow up.

It's a very windy days and kite flying season is here again. We decided to go for kite flying too for the first time last saturday. I have redeemed a kite for my son via some points collection. So when we go there, we saw many kites flying in the sky. We are so excited, especially myself because I didn't fly any kite since I was young. Never before. So we walked to the ample grass field and dad started to try fly the kite. When you see people flying the kite, it looks like very easy to get it on the sky but too bad for us. After dad try for some time, we gave up. Looks like our kite too small & too heavy to fly up. Well, all right. I admitted that when he is flying the kite that time, I was nagging him a lot. Keep pushing him to fly it. Maybe it was my fault giving him too much pressure.

So instead continueing with the kite, my eldest wanted to play in the play ground, and the youngest one sitting at the bench watching people playing basketball game.


I was trying to find a tranquil moment with myself. Here I managed to find a spot where i can face the sunset directly. The sun was setting down slowly, i tried to look for the tranquil moment within myself and projected it out to the surrounding. What I felt that time is magnificent calm and ease. The wind blow directly to my face and it was just me, only me alone standing there facing the sun. While everyone is moving, flying kites, jogging, playing basketball with lots of noises but only me feeling calm and quiet inside. Sometimes we are just too busy until we forgot about good things around us. Same as what happen in our mind. Look at the sky and the sun and the cloud, don't you see the magnificent beauty out there created by Him ?

I closed my eyes for a moment and let the wind blowing on my face, I felt like all the worries & uneasiness on me all blow away by the wind. All gone with the wind. I felt refreshed all over again.
I guess I have done a short moment of meditation that brings this. What I felft only the sweetness of the 3 kisses of my son and the beautt of this world.

Your innerself will be reflected on your surrounding, if you dare enough to look at yourself, you will see more and more of it and grab the essense of it.

Trust me, the enemy is within yourself, not others. Now I finally realized this.

Namaste !

Have You Read/Tell A Story Today ?

I enjoy telling story to my kids. Whether it is right before bed time or on the way to the school while I am driving. I prefer to tell it spontaneously. Spontaneous story telling let my creativity and imagination run wild.

In that way, I can use my imagination, my creativity and any possible words that I can think of to make up my story. There was once i make up a story about a Giant, that came out of nowhere, encompany my kids to supermarket for shopping ! When I was telling my kids this story, I was holding my younger boy, Jasper - 1 year old and acting out the story scene with some actions and movement. It was fun and they enjoy it a lot ! We laughed through out the whole session & my eldest Justin like it very much too !

My kids are my source of inspiration for story telling and they inspire me to expand my imagination & creativity. Not only in story telling but in making my own songs as well. I have made some kids songs based on things that they have shared with me and they enjoyed it too ! Frog, ducklings, bees, butterfly, during bathing time, sometimes we share some funny jokes as well and just burst out laughing !